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Treasured gift or As we learned

Thirtieth of December, 2007 about our kid. Usual holiday turmoil - nothing foretold a miracle. I stand in the crowded shop, I hold packages of gifts in hand and I wait for the husband who ran behind something... I look around around - joyfully - uneasy people run to and fro, the tortured sellers, the decorated show-windows of boutiques... The look stops on the inscription “Drugstore“. What incurred me there? I do not know, promised herself more “them“ not to buy, again there will be tears in a pillow, again questions in emptiness - “For what I am so punished?“ Etc., but I nevertheless remove a trifle from a pocket and I speak in a low voice:“ Give me the test for pregnancy“. And here small retreat...

At that time I was in marriage the 4th year, we had no children, and there was a wish very much. To tell that we went through the mill - it is nothing to tell. One party is a treatment, drugs, doctors, hospitals, pleasant it is not enough, but it is possible to worry, and other party - when considers everyone a duty to ask you: “And why you do not bring children? Already it is time for you!“ As if it is some doggies...

When you buy by

the next test, and there again one when you cry nights on flight, and in the head only one thought: “Really never at me will be the child?!“ All this breaks you as the personality as person as the woman...

One o`clock in the morning. December 31, 2007. I come off a bed in full confidence that already a watch of the 7th morning (and it is better to pass “it“ in the morning), I carry out necessary procedure and I wait. And it is necessary to wait for 5 minutes - eternity who waited, that will understand... And? Again one! I promised herself not to cry! And what here to do?! It is not given! Miracles do not happen! Even on New Year`s Eve! I put all this business on a window sill and I go to sleep with full eyes of tears...

to Fall asleep, of course, it will not turn out. A moonlight in a window, the last night of the expiring year, I lie, tears slide, I remember the New Year`s desire - it did not come true! Why? For what? The hand lasts, I take a test strip, in eyes appears doubled... From tears, probably... Weak, hardly noticeable... But it is there! Them there two!! All! At that moment my heaven and earth was moved! I understood that in me there lives new life! The moon suddenly began to shine absolutely in a different way, stars drove round dances, snow became more white, and life became fine!

I, of course, made by

that last day of the leaving 2007 still a lot of these tests, but they did not matter any more because I “it“ simply felt each part.

Ya put all these tests in a festive box and when hours beat 12, I handed to the husband the treasured gift...

Since then for us with the husband everything in the world exchanged. Now our Arseny is 1 years old and 4 months. It makes me happy on light. Thanks to it that it is!

P. S. Still I would like to address those who wait for the Miracle now. At you surely everything will turn out, trust in it!