Rus Articles Journal

And again morning...

As you appeared on this world, the boiling life and eternal affairs...

Morning. The cheerful sun lit all around, wind frayed leaflets on tips of branches of trees, beams of the sun looked through through them and got to me on the person. I sleep... The unclear feeling whether pleasures, whether concerns from such solar touch woke me. The husband with pleasure slept near by, without noticing sunshine. I got up, washed and just in case decided to check the test for pregnancy. Put the test for a stool near a bed (for manifestation it was necessary to wait several minutes), and itself was filled up again in a bed to roll about.

there Passed about 5 minutes. Pushing sideways the spouse, asked to look at the test. He sleepy eyes took the test - a strip and, rubbing still eyes, quietly asked me: “And two strips are as?“ Two strips... Two strips... Two strips?? Two strips!! Oh, My God! At last came true a miracle! After so many long months of expectation! The pleasure picked up soul and a body. Cheeks lit up, heart was clogged more than ever earlier, very quickly and tremblingly, the confusion and pleasure fought in me! And from eyes tears, tears of joy and hopes began to flow. I am pregnant! I! She is pregnant! I am pregnant!!

Pregnancy proceeded just remarkably: any hypostases, any nausea, even in the first weeks of pregnancy. I flitted as a butterfly, no preferences salty or sweet existed, simply led a usual life, put on weight, and the tummy grew.

the Anticipation lasted 42 weeks. From - for such big term put in maternity hospital. I lay week there, but nothing occurred, childbirth did not begin in any way.

at Night for September 10 was sharply taken by a stomach! And here they, long-awaited fights... Later the pleasure was replaced by the most severe pain. Both again, and again... This pain haunted. Time between fights decreased, and pain became more terrible and more painful... I did not know any more, as to do - a wolf to howl or shout as abnormal... Or to break this foolish bed?.

Hatred for all men of the planet was tested by me, promises to themselves were made that I will nevermore become pregnant... Time went. Promuchivshis in fights of 7 hours, had disclosure on only 2 cm. And it is necessary to 10.

I suddenly pain was gone. Everything passed. Fights came to an end. And I did not give rise. Went to tell about it to the midwife. She for some reason became agitated with , delivered to KTG for listening of heartbeat of the baby in a tummy and left. In half an hour 2 doctors, the midwife and the manager with disturbing persons run to me, examine results of KTG, and lines which there are it is unclear outlined... There is no heartbeat!

In the head grew dull, in eyes darkened, tears large peas poured down, the body shook for fear and loneliness. Loudly shout that prepared operational chamber! I in confusion. Yes what is it... Somebody explain to me... What happened? In reply the midwife hurriedly spoke:“ Prepare, we will do “Caesarian“. Vanities to sign some leaflets. Through tears I see nothing. I sign all... I sob from a hopelessness. Ask to write a surname... Memory was sharply erased... I try to remember a surname after a marriage... Tears wet all papers... Boot covers, wheelchair... Let`s roll..

there Passed year. Morning. The cheerful sun lit all around, wind frayed leaflets on tips of branches of trees, beams of the sun looked through through them and got to me on the person. I sleep... The unclear feeling whether pleasures, whether concerns from such solar touch woke me. The husband with pleasure slept near by, without noticing sunshine. The daughter, washing pleasure, with pleasure snuffles at himself in a tiny bed. Weather is extremely fine... I am pregnant again!