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Time is measured by love of

to me always it seemed that it is not essential. It is insignificant to speak about it with the brother. It is insignificant to speak because it is obvious and so. Because as it is possible to speak about it to the person who the behavior does not deserve it, and, in general, with it the relation to life he cannot... Cannot any more... And what I can? It appears, and I already something cannot. I cannot tell the brother that I love him. Just I love. At all not for what he could achieve, in my opinion, in life. And not for the fact that he is simply obliged to me by all what I made for it. And for what I love it? Strange, it appears it is necessary to love for something? Who decided that it is necessary to love for acts and desires? Someone solved...

1977. Mother will give birth to you to the brother or the sister today. You want. I want. Whom do you want? I want the brother. And you will love it? I will be. And why you cry? Because we have a birthday in one day, and it will be given gifts, and to me is not present. Why? Because it is small...

is Called by mother. Zhenya got sick. What is with it? Probably, pneumonia. The doctor was called? Yes, wrote out a heap of drugs. You will come to us? Mother, when to me to come around? It is so much work that I do not know when home I arrive. He waits for you. It that small? Perhaps you will come around? I will well come around!

Hi. How he feels? To it it is worse and he strongly grew thin. Zhenya, you have temperature? Yes, 39,9. Pancake, “Ambulance“ it is necessary!

you his brother? Yes. I should talk to you. Proydemte in a staffroom. The doctor, what is with him?. You have about two months of time...

of Time... time... two months... two... time... Time “to“ and time “later“. As it is strange that time there can be “two“. Why at first there is a lot of it, and then it is absent. How to learn that it is absent any more? Or it is few. Or it already “later“.

Ya I will recover? Of course! You tell the truth? Zhenya, when I deceived you? You know, I have such feeling that I will not rise from a bed. Yes, it is just weakness, you will rise. Why you have tears? Ren, stop sticking that to bring to you tomorrow. Do not leave, please. I know that it is necessary to you home, but stay with me. You remember when I was small and sprained a leg, you carried me on hands of hour two? No, I do not remember. And I remember, the father with us did not live any more, and you carried me at the sea. We far paced the coast, and back you carried me on hands, and it was so pleasant to me that care for me. I know that in life I caused you one troubles... Excuse me. Zhenya, what troubles. All forgot. I did not forget, it is so a shame to me before you...

of Feeling... feelings not at the right time... unconscious feelings. Why it is necessary to hide the feelings? Why we inhibit in ourselves desire everything to speak in time? To speak now, but not then when there is an opportunity. To speak about the feelings, but not about feelings which should be expressed because “such they have to be“. Time... Feelings... Feelings “to“ and “later“. These are other feelings, they are different. But always at the right time. Someone decided that not time...

it is better than

for You? Normally. However, it is better? It is difficult for me to speak. Tell me something. What to tell? Tell the fairy tale. Zhenya, you are 27 years old what fairy tale? Well and that, I in the childhood them was a little told. Give I to you I will tell where we will go to have a rest in the summer. Tell - it will be the fairy tale too... Now, I will come to the doctor, I will return and I will tell... Can then to the doctor? Zhenya, where I will look for him then?

It is strange... There is no time... To find time... We look for it, but we do not find. It everywhere and it is not present. And it is necessary a little. Slightly - slightly it is necessary infinitely not to suffer. Not to suffer because that now time is, but you do not want to give it. Could earlier, but did not give. Considered that not time to give time...

Marrying, it is necessary to take a blood test on the analysis in other case. I will not be able to reach itself, there is a lot of ladders. Nothing, I will help. Yes, I and with your help will not reach. Well, I will take you on hands. And what people will tell? To whom what business, why I carry you on hands? Give, cling to a neck. You then at the sea also told me. It was given you it is the sea! All look at us. And you look at me. I cannot. Why? It is a shame to me to look at you. You remember, then in court when the judge began a meeting: “... case on Evgeny`s charge is heard... century. with participation of the prosecutor... and lawyer...“ . Then faltered and asked, you his brother? I do not remember. Yes, all right you remember. I then thought that I would give everything, if only not to see how you grew thin after her words as it was a shame to you. And now it is a shame to me, that you carry me on hands, and then... in the childhood it was pleasant.

... Hallo... It from hospital... Generally, at you no more than three hours remained...

Remained to

... Unless can “remain“ time? It can come to an end? What will be when time ends?“ There is no time “and“ to time remained“ is not one and too? What it is more terrible “there is no time“ or “to time remained“?

Marrying, everything will be good. I here with mother. Mother be not angry with me, I did not want to offend you. I do not know itself how it turned out to live so. Zhenya... Zhenechka, you hear me? Zhenya...

Well that chose a coffin. No. Why? I do not know how to choose? Give I to you I will help. To whom it is necessary - the man or the woman? To the man. To the guy. What age?

Age... age... it is small, he is 4 years old and it is happy because that he is carried on hands that care for it. It is happy because all love of the world belongs only to it. Nobody will take away it from it. But nobody will tell it about the love to it. Will not tell any more... There passed time when it was possible to tell.

What to measure by

time? The egoism... The desire to do everything it is correct... Strong belief in the correctness... Time can be measured by pleasure of love which presented another... To measure by love for “just like that“... Lyubov who should not be bought, borrowed... To measure by love which is not subject to time. Love which can be presented at any time, to any. Love... To any...

Time is measured by love.

Marrying, I love you...